let go

i had let it go..
everything behind me,my pass,those days i had walked passed..
i'm really tired of life,full of troubles,=(
anyway,i pray that i would press my way through,just the touching,that brings great different in me...its gonna be different...it always gonna be

my buddy,suddenly quite miss u,haha,
a going-to-be teacher,
i pray that,u will be an outstanding one,a good teacher that leaves good memories behind,
a teacher with his legacy of excellent students
i pray n bless for u bright future,
and i pray that ur everything will always in God's Hand,
the greatest thing that i can give u is,my prayers,that would last as long as i live=)
things gonna be different starting from now,
but i will still by ur side...my buddy...mr Tan..
take care there...

life equilibrium..

we lost things,and we gain...
is it what so called equilibrium re-established?

need You here

longing to be in God's presence again,
hate those uncoming hurts,
that makes me stronger...
miss hillsong united concert...
hope to be in planetshakers' this year...

that's what i'm feeling now..

no matter how strong we are,how wonderful lives can be,
there is never a place where it's more 'shiok' than being in God's presence..

love u,Dad..

''..i m completely devoted to You
my heart is wholly consume by Your Love
i lay down my whole life to bring You praise
i m wholly devoted to You...''

Devoted to You by Planetshakers, Even Greater album,latest album...

need You here...

why?

Sometimes things change,sometimes thing still the same
i was wondering, why God creat something like me?
why is He so love a wretch,a skunk like me?
what can He get from me?
noyhing but hurt...

but still,He loves me
more than i know
above my understanding

that's my God,a Father,and a Best Friend

this is Our God...=)
but why?
thats the answer...

WHY - by Nicole Nordeman

we rode into town the other day
just me and my daddy
He said i'd finally reach that age
and i could ride
next to him on a horse
that of course
was not quite as wide

we heard a crowd of people shouting
and so we stopped to find out why
and there was that Man
that my dad said he love
but today that was fear in his eyes

so i said:" daddy why are they screaming?
why are the faces of some of them beaming?
why is He dressed in that bride purple robe?
i bet crown hurts Him more than He show..
daddy please,
can't you do something?
He looks as though He's gonna cry.
you said He was stronger than all of those guys.
daddy please tell me why? why does everyone want Him to die?"

Later that day the sky grew cloudy and daddy said i should go inside
somehow he knew things would get stormy
boy was he right
but i could not keep from wondering if there was something he had to hide
so after he left i had to find out
i was not afraid of getting lost
so i follow the crowd
to a place where i knew man had been killed
and i heard a voice come from a Cross

and it said:" Father why are they screaming?
why are the faces of some of them beaming?
why are they casting their lots for my robes?
this crown of thorns hurts me more than it shows
Father please...
can't You do something?
i know You must hear my cry
i thought i could handle a cross of this size
Father remind me why,why does everyone want me to die..
when will i understand why?"

"My precious son. I hear them screaming,
I'm watching the face of the enemy beaming,
but soon I will clothe you in robes of My own,
jesus this hurts Me much more than You know,
but this dark hour I must do nothing,
though I've heard your unbearable cry,
the power in your blood destroy all of those lies,
soon you'll see past their unmerciful eyes,
look there below see the child..
trembling by her father side..
now I can tell you why...
she is why you
must die..."

So you would come - Hillsong

Before the world began
you were on His mind
and every tear you cry
is precious in His eyes
because of His great Love
He gave His only Son

everything was done so you would come

nothing you can do
to make Him love you more
and nothing you've done
would make Him close the door

because of His great Love
He gave His only Son

everything was done so you would come

come to the Father
though your gift is small
broken hearts broken lives
He will take them all

the Power of the Word
the Power of His Love

everything was done so you would come

累了。。=）
人总会累的，休息一下，再走吧=）
可是
我不休息了=p

挺好的

好久不见了=）
家里上不了网==，没有便咯
累了一整天，垮了，感觉上，像打了一场仗
使尽全力的地想打破一座冰山，哈哈

对了，明天是5月11号，我们第一次见面的第一天
1个月18天后，就是6月29号，我们的第一封信息
2个月13天后，我们的第一次约会
2个月24天后，就是我们在一起一周年了
虽然，在呢之后的19天后，我们就分手了
起码留下了回忆 · 脚印

我写出来不是想怎样，只是，那是我心中，带着想念的幸福
到现在还记着=）

一样的对未来没有奢望，一样的对你，不敢奢望
只是在远远的看着你

不管你有没有感觉都好，毕竟，这是属于我们所拥有的，曾经

你的路，我会支持着
You are not alone=) rmb...

挺好的。。。

Worthy is the Lamb - Hillsong

thank you for the Cross Lord
thank you for the nail pierced hand
bearing of my sin and shame
in Love You came
and gave amazing Grace

thank you for this Love Lord
thank you for the price You paid
washing me in Your cleansing flow
now all i know
Your forgiveness and embrace

worthy is the Lamb
sitted on the Throne
crown You now with many Crowns
You reign victorious

high and lifted up
Jesus Son of God
darling of heaven crucified
worthy is the Lamb
worthy is the Lamb

我，还在

曾经是多么想抓着时间，就停留在那一刻
就哪儿也不去
但，该结束的，还是得结束不是？
为了你的幸福，你的快乐，
是我定下这个约定的，是应该习惯了
祝你幸福，要幸福
我，还在

如果

如果，我们现在还在一起会是怎样呢？

我们是不是还是深爱着对方？

想开始时那样，握着手，就算天快亮。。

挺好的

挺好的，
原来自己挺好的

决定也只是在那杀那间
左还是右，
右，是你未来的幸福
左，是你现在的幸福
右，已经看见未来
左，却是蒙蒙的雾
右，总会是最好的
左，却有些代价
别犹豫了，幸福，是个人的，
只要一个人觉得幸福了，他，就幸福了

原来自己挺好的，
上帝，还没不看我
想到你被鞭打的情景，心好痛，
我会尽力的，把我所有的，都给你，
让你在我这里，也能够有些面子，哈哈哈哈

挺好的

当我没再看你的时候，并不代表，
不爱你了，感觉还在，
只是，不会再想要得到什么，

反正现在，也挺好的




虽然，我们不一定是第一名，但，我们的终点，永远都和第一名一样 · 曾志龙

my heart · for You

what is the feeling right now,just feeling weird,inside..
asking myself do i still love u?..answer is yes...
so what?...=)

yesterday the school had a meeting,for all Christians,perhaps,i can say that,not all are Christians,xD,just suddenly happened to be Christians,well that's not the main point,the point is,
i found myself again,i found what is called home,used to be called. 'men..i have been away from Home for so long but yet i thought i have been being Home already'.ya,that's the fact...haha...
the worship is just simple,but without drum,and the first time i found myself looking others taking my place as a bassist,xD

who i actually am?
a son of God? or a brother among Christians?
answer is,both..
looking into myself,yes,i have a great talent,i can play with at least four musical instrument,haha,i can draw well,doing everything well,but i know,this is not because my brain is bigger than others,it's because, it's all a Gift...without You, we are nothing,it's You who put all of this into me...

why are You so kind to me? i'm not deserve for anything You had gave me,not even the breath i'm having now,but,i had it didn't i?,,,do You know that You gave me everything i'm having now and yet i gave You nothing but hurt in return?

i'm sorry okay? i'm really sorry for everything i had brought to You,it's all a mess...

i have a destiny,and i know it's all about You,if i would love someone with everything of me,why not i do the same to You,didn't You deserve everything of me? it doesn't mean that she is not deserve,it's just that....You deserve more than everything i'm giving to You now...

You are the One who suffer so much for me,who gave me my everything,who keep telling me that You are here with me,who keep telling me that 'it's okay' when i goes wrong,who still have faith in me,who still willing to believe in me,who still waiting there at the front door,longing to see me Home,who would hug and kiss me when i come home with everything mess up,who still willing to love me even when i hurt You so much,You....it's all about You....You are the reason i live,the reason why i'm still living right now,in front of this small laptop...

my life is already a mess,and i'm gonna fix it,with You,every step i take,i'm gonna follow the order You gave,because You know what was needed for me...You know everything for me, and You are everything to me...

with all my life,i would honor You,with a Holy life,a Christian life,a life as Your very son...=)

and You will have the honor to.....have everything of me...xD
( perhaps this is not an honor but a shame)


this is it...my heart · for You

MJ

this is it,a concert of the king of pop,a concert that would have never have a chance to have,though i have never finish watching it,but,i can imagine,the wonders of it,its awesomeness,the last and ever showdown of the king...the final showdown of a legend....

Michael Jackson,the King of Pop,the legend that last forever...

xD

成熟与幼稚的定义是什么？
明白与混乱的定义又是什么？
瞬间失去了平衡点
感觉，快找到了，但，又好像摸也摸不着
你离去的那一天到现在，已经是第七个月了
一个人的我，经过了多少，错过了多少啊
目前，我只明白，三个字
This is it...
this is who i am
no matter what the hell is blocking my way,
m gonna kick its ass...xD

a letter

to:the Father

m coming back,i just want U to noe that m coming back,n m going out again,to bring someone to U,help me,help me to be wad U wan me to be,

i dono whether U r still there waitng for me to come back,but i just wanna tel U dat,m coming back

from: the prodigal son

i

爱，是双方的

在这里的我，也许太感性了？
因为，我把我的感性放在这里

在外面的我，太花了？
因为我把我的好掩饰了

在你眼里的我，是否太脆弱了？
因为，那是我最私密的一面

要学的东西还好多，在学着
当我说我会尽力，就表示，我会不惜一切的做到
当我说我在，就表示，24小时standby

m here,n here m i,
even if one day God take me away,i want u to noe that m stil here
the one i used to love,and the one m caring for now

is not i cant let go,is i chose to stay=)

i noe is not a stupid desicion,
thats wad i m

记得

对你的好，总有一天会画上句点
总有一天，一切将会结束
我有时在想，到了那一天，
你伤心了，不开心了，你还会找我吗？
也许不会了
也许我们，将变回以前刚刚认识的我们
我走的这条路，仍然只剩我一个人
也许应该开始学着去习惯
不想到时你突然离开了
只剩我一个人
无助而习惯不来，一个人
不管到时的我们怎样了
我，还在，只要你找我，我就在
这一点，请永远记得

在

做不到离开
做不到自私

如果你想通了
当然
是最好

要加油
你的人生，真的还很长
别轻易说放弃，别轻易说累了

要好好照顾自己
就算是为了我也好，那是你唯一能够报答我对你的好，的方法
总之
我还在这，别怕，路有多难走，天有多黑，我，还在

对不起

我想走得潇洒
想学习自私

但
似乎永远都学不会，自私，对我而言，
是多么的遥不可及

虽然不知道什么时候是终点
但
如果一路都好好地跑着
就算下一步就是终点线
也无所谓了
死，并不恐怖
恐怖的是，死了还有遗憾

现在的我，平平淡淡
对以后没有要求，对现在还算满足，对过去却有遗憾
但不管我人生的下一步是什么，
我
会尽力





感觉，想说


对不起

当

累了，真的累了
也是时候，功成身退了

或许学会了好多好多
也或许什么也没有

当你学会了寂寞，就不会觉得，朋友多就是热闹
当你学会了珍惜，就不会觉得，之前的错过是种遗憾
当你学会了明白，就不会觉得，误会是种愚蠢
当你学会了爱，就不会觉得，付出是种浪费
当你学会了知足，就不会觉得，埋怨是种表达
当你学会了，什么是朋友，就会发觉，敌人，也可以做朋友
放纵，是种折磨，找不到的快乐，永远都找不到

有时心，空着，却不会空虚，放满了，却觉得空荡荡的

世间的人情世故，我也许已经看破了，也也许什么也看不懂
美的人不一定好，但好的人，一定美

感觉可以是种表达，也可以只是感觉
不管我们的相识，是种缘分，还是种愚弄
至少，我们相识过，至少，我们牵手过
短短的三个星期，塑造了一辈子的回忆，值得了啦=D

不管以后有多远，我，这辈子，永远都会支持你
我，不需要你的记得，因为我不配，但这份好，请永远记得
因为，它，会让你永远知道，你被珍惜

是时候功成身退了。。

你

原来伤，还没好
想念，依旧在
现在的你，好吗？

如果我告诉你，
我很好，那么，你呢？
现在的我，尽着全力，
把我的戏，演得好
把我的心，隐藏好
想让你知道
你在我心里住过的房间
还空着
虽然，已经不再奢望你回来
但
依然想保留你留下的一切
你的气味
你的回忆

电台所播的歌，总让我想起你
而其突然的想起，就变成了思念

你要好好的过，未来也是，
不管你在不在意，还是会为你而待着
保护着你

two is better than one - boys like girls+taylor swift

i remember what you wore on the first day
you came into my life and i thought
'hey, you know, this could be something'

cause everything you do and word you say
you know that it all takes my breath away
and now i'm left with nothing

cause may be it's true
that i can't live without you
may be two is better than one
there's so much time
to figure out the rest of my life
and you've already got me coming undone
i'm thinking two is better than one

i remember every look upon your face
the way you row your eyes the way you taste
that make it hard for breathing

cause when i close my eyes and drift away
i think of you and everything's ok
and finally now believing



nice,gave me some feeling that i used to lost=)

musics

musics

part of my life


the biggest one=)

life will be nothing without it..

imperfection perfects us

i used to be confused,used to be wondering,why my life seems like too much of testings,but now i understand,'imperfection perfects us'...
i know who i really am,who i actually made to be,
and after going through all sorts of things,just finally learnt to be what i suppose to be..

whoever i'm gonna be,i'll do my very best,

here i am to say,'' hey,dun worry,i'm here with you''

but would you care?
i don't know,but one thing i know is that,its just complicated...i've made my life complicated
who knows the pain that actually stand in my heart?
and who cares?
sometimes i find myself useless,and as well as a loser,but who cares n so what?

know one can help me except God and myself

finally got back on the track,finally got back to God

because without God....i'm nothing

told Him that i'm not gonna lose all that i'm having now,would that possible?
may be it can,
but i will try my best to protect ,and treasure them...


just remember,

imperfection perfects us...
we are who we really are
we know things can't be always there
but if we have that chance to have it even just for few seconds
its better to treasure it before its gone...

x)

love
simple but complicated
nothing but everything
hopeless,but miracles still there

weird isn't it?

any how,anyway,still trying to figure out something new
making myself busy
and doing all my best for others
for no regrets
no apologize
no 'its too late...' =)


keeping on...x)