my heart · for You

what is the feeling right now,just feeling weird,inside..
asking myself do i still love u?..answer is yes...
so what?...=)

yesterday the school had a meeting,for all Christians,perhaps,i can say that,not all are Christians,xD,just suddenly happened to be Christians,well that's not the main point,the point is,
i found myself again,i found what is called home,used to be called. 'men..i have been away from Home for so long but yet i thought i have been being Home already'.ya,that's the fact...haha...
the worship is just simple,but without drum,and the first time i found myself looking others taking my place as a bassist,xD

who i actually am?
a son of God? or a brother among Christians?
answer is,both..
looking into myself,yes,i have a great talent,i can play with at least four musical instrument,haha,i can draw well,doing everything well,but i know,this is not because my brain is bigger than others,it's because, it's all a Gift...without You, we are nothing,it's You who put all of this into me...

why are You so kind to me? i'm not deserve for anything You had gave me,not even the breath i'm having now,but,i had it didn't i?,,,do You know that You gave me everything i'm having now and yet i gave You nothing but hurt in return?

i'm sorry okay? i'm really sorry for everything i had brought to You,it's all a mess...

i have a destiny,and i know it's all about You,if i would love someone with everything of me,why not i do the same to You,didn't You deserve everything of me? it doesn't mean that she is not deserve,it's just that....You deserve more than everything i'm giving to You now...

You are the One who suffer so much for me,who gave me my everything,who keep telling me that You are here with me,who keep telling me that 'it's okay' when i goes wrong,who still have faith in me,who still willing to believe in me,who still waiting there at the front door,longing to see me Home,who would hug and kiss me when i come home with everything mess up,who still willing to love me even when i hurt You so much,You....it's all about You....You are the reason i live,the reason why i'm still living right now,in front of this small laptop...

my life is already a mess,and i'm gonna fix it,with You,every step i take,i'm gonna follow the order You gave,because You know what was needed for me...You know everything for me, and You are everything to me...

with all my life,i would honor You,with a Holy life,a Christian life,a life as Your very son...=)

and You will have the honor to.....have everything of me...xD
( perhaps this is not an honor but a shame)


this is it...my heart · for You

MJ

this is it,a concert of the king of pop,a concert that would have never have a chance to have,though i have never finish watching it,but,i can imagine,the wonders of it,its awesomeness,the last and ever showdown of the king...the final showdown of a legend....

Michael Jackson,the King of Pop,the legend that last forever...

xD

成熟与幼稚的定义是什么？
明白与混乱的定义又是什么？
瞬间失去了平衡点
感觉，快找到了，但，又好像摸也摸不着
你离去的那一天到现在，已经是第七个月了
一个人的我，经过了多少，错过了多少啊
目前，我只明白，三个字
This is it...
this is who i am
no matter what the hell is blocking my way,
m gonna kick its ass...xD

a letter

to:the Father

m coming back,i just want U to noe that m coming back,n m going out again,to bring someone to U,help me,help me to be wad U wan me to be,

i dono whether U r still there waitng for me to come back,but i just wanna tel U dat,m coming back

from: the prodigal son

i

爱，是双方的

在这里的我，也许太感性了？
因为，我把我的感性放在这里

在外面的我，太花了？
因为我把我的好掩饰了

在你眼里的我，是否太脆弱了？
因为，那是我最私密的一面

要学的东西还好多，在学着
当我说我会尽力，就表示，我会不惜一切的做到
当我说我在，就表示，24小时standby

m here,n here m i,
even if one day God take me away,i want u to noe that m stil here
the one i used to love,and the one m caring for now

is not i cant let go,is i chose to stay=)

i noe is not a stupid desicion,
thats wad i m

记得

对你的好，总有一天会画上句点
总有一天，一切将会结束
我有时在想，到了那一天，
你伤心了，不开心了，你还会找我吗？
也许不会了
也许我们，将变回以前刚刚认识的我们
我走的这条路，仍然只剩我一个人
也许应该开始学着去习惯
不想到时你突然离开了
只剩我一个人
无助而习惯不来，一个人
不管到时的我们怎样了
我，还在，只要你找我，我就在
这一点，请永远记得

在

做不到离开
做不到自私

如果你想通了
当然
是最好

要加油
你的人生，真的还很长
别轻易说放弃，别轻易说累了

要好好照顾自己
就算是为了我也好，那是你唯一能够报答我对你的好，的方法
总之
我还在这，别怕，路有多难走，天有多黑，我，还在